I know that each member in this family hates me..and I do too...yes, they do....if they don't then they wouldn't disagree with me all the time..just as my auntie do (sorry cousin but I hope you accepted my feelings) she always stand opposite of me.....plus there's my mom, who always always differentiate and consider that sister as a star and I'm the lower!!! And because of them I can't draw my future or even draw my present as I want.......the question now, do I have a best friend? Or leave that Do I have a real friend in this life who stick with me and never leave me..to call her "My closest friend" and I can tell her all my feelings all the time?? Why when I feel happy there's someone who came and try to destroy my happiness? And
WHY I MUST DIE LIKE THIS???

(sorry again, cousin) EXACTLY as I thought since me and my cousin became a best friend and I have that feeling....and just now I realized that my auntie don't want that friendship lasts....but I'm ready to leave her daughter if that will make her feeling satisfied and stopping interfering in my affair!!  

(no one can understand how i feel nowadays,,why i'm crying now alone...why there no one i can drop my tears on his lap??) ,,,,,why i just cried beside the wall...
even didn't eat my lunch and dinner today..thought my mom will take me out..hanging together,,,b-but nothing will change them.....